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Hello Divas, I hope this post finds you well!!! To end this special 18 years old week, I have decided to make a list of my last 10 years. <3

2006: (16-17) I just finished school, I was 17. I had no idea what to do next. The only thing I was sure that I needed to go to University, not even a College.  (First regret: I should have started a blog this year)

2007: (17-18)I wanted to be a doctor, so I was in this intensive preparation course. By the end of the year, I got accepted in one private med school. I was too scary to go. I turned 18 with nothing in my hands but a lot of knowledge in my brain.

2008: (18-19) Another year in another intensive university preparation course. This time, I choose  to go for communications. I wanted to study journalism.  But I didn’t have the guts to try it so I applied for Publishing. I almost studied it in a private school. (Second regret: I should have studied journalism)

2009: (19-20) First year of University. I wasn’t ready for it and I didn’t know what to do. So it was lame. I wanted freedom and I had my first real boyfriend. So it was a professionally wasted year. I was studying Spanish and stopped it. (Third regret: Why the fuck I stopped studying Spanish?)

2010: (20-21) Second year of University. I was trying to recover from our break up, wasting lots of time stalking him. I just finally put my shit together when I started doing things for myself like visiting blogs and getting an internship. My first real job. FINALLY.

2011: (21-22) Third year of University. I was more mature but not so much.  I was more worried about being single. This was the year that I realised that I needed to change for real.  I wasn’t going anywhere if I was just looking for boys. Meanwhile, I got another job and I really liked this one. I was happy and I was good on it. In august, I decided that I wanted to go abroad. So I planned to move to Toronto.  In October, I started my blog (ANOTHER BIG FINALLY). Tara-vivendo.blogspot.com.br was born. And I am really proud of it. This was the year that things started really changing.  I took charge of my life.At university, we had to publish one book, and I was stupid enough to embrace 3 of it. Of course I failed. (Fourth regret: Embracing more than I can and not delivering it).

2012:(22-23) First of January I was living in Toronto, I was an exchange student and I wanted to do it differently. So I started writing as freelancer ( second best thing I ever done so far, after my blog). I wrote for a website and a magazine. It was good. But I gave up on my blog, not so sure why. (Fifth regret: giving up on my blog). Then I got my third real job and it was awesome.

2013:(23-24) Again, I didn’t know what to do with my life. I was afraid to go back to Brazil and I didn’t have much in Toronto anymore. I had the most hard experience of my life and destiny said it was time to go home. So I went. I had the challenge to put my shit together big time. So, I was back to university and I got 3 jobs at once. I was working as an English teacher, as in communication intern and as translator in another office. I made money for the first time in my life. It ended-up just fine, no regrets this year. 😀

2014:(24-25) Another big year in my life. I was finally in my fourth and final year at University. This was the most challenging year of my life and the one that I should feel really proud. I was able to pass all my classes on the first semester, it was the maximum a person can take. And I was able to have 10 on my final thesis (about blogs of course). (Sixth regret: I was writing freelance as well. And I wasn’t able to do it right so I burnt some bridges. )

2015:(25-26) After 4 relative good years, I had the lamest year of my life. It was all bullshit. I applied for so many jobs that I can’t count.  At the beginner, I was working at a publishing house that paid me so little that I couldn’t afford to breath. I was trying to conciliate it with English teaching. But I got really tired of counting coins and being really poor. So I give up of everything. I had just moved by myself and I decided I wanted to die. At 25, I was so lost sooooo soooo lost.

Then I travelled to Europe with my now husband <3, and after it I need to grow and take back the control of my life, I was so weak.  My husband kept telling me that I wasn’t doing things right, but its hard to do something, when you don’t know what to do.

So I stared writing freelancing again. And I decided to start blogging  again.  I got really organized with my blog goals and not so much with the freelancing and again I burnt some bridges.  FUCK IT, TAMIRES!!! (Seventh Regret: AGAIN I was writing freelance as well. And I wasn’t able to do it right so I burnt some bridges.)

2016:(26-27): Finaly, we arrived back to reality. In 2016, 2 major chances happened in my life, I got married with my love Osvaldo and we moved to London. Now, I am almost 27 and I know what I want to do with my life.  I want to work with writing. So I keep my blog with one post per day, I am trying to get some freelancing opportunities and I wrote a e-book. And I  work 10 to 6 in digital marketing agency in London.

I really wish I could just focus more on my writing, who knows what is going to happen. But now, I know that I want to be a blogger, a book writer and a magazine freelance writer. Hope some day, I can have it all.

Conclusion: life is all about up and downs, but we need to keep going.

Divas, please let me know in the comments what are your thoughts about it!!!  I will be waiting for them!!!

 A huge kiss to all Divas in Brazil and in the world.

Tara <3

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